Blissful Thoughtlessness...

"thoughtlessness is unviable: is what is often heard,
but thoughtless is all i choose to be,to you be it absurd.
It's comforting;with no chaos and no clash of vision,
more so when your life entire,dangles on 'the' decision.

confident goals inviting me,with open arms and cheer,
hopeful eyes assuring me-there's no place for fear...
yet, is my life, in all good sense, worth only 'a' chance?
be if yes the answer, wouldn't i but live in a trance?

With people's pouring opinions and inter-refuting views,
my blankness only heightens & farther i move from the hues,
Hues relating to my future & those dictating my life...
Is this how you live too?in a commotion within you, so rife?

When a gently killing monotony, growing eternally in you,
and eager are you no more, to start your life anew...
when dreams you have none, and time is running short...
its when you have it all, yet are happy with naught.

I pray not for such a life, I have no space for perfection,
I'd rather live by chance, than go by your instruction...
I want not my decision,to take me far from "me"...
"four-walls' fail to allure me, 'tis "the world" i wish to see...

So quit pushing me, afar from this thotless state,
for it is amidst a riot,that my thoughts will finally mate,
and bless me with an answer,the 'one' i seem to miss...
where in lies my future?where would i find my bliss?

Well, for all those who have opined and still do that i have "wasted" a year doing "nothing"...good news-Im wasting three more years!!!Not that you would agree with me, not even that i care!ok...less of sarcasm/cynicism and more of information...i have applied to Francis (...i knw...) and submitted forms for 3 combos...
*history/eng literature/political science
*mass communications/english literature/political science
*economics/english literature/political science
The trouble is that, each of these three combos appeals to a different side of me...in the sense that pol sci n litt are both essential for me and hence they are decided.But the third and undecided (yet...)optional "seems" to be THE BIG THING...
History is something i WANT to learn-only and simply because it fascinates me.and anyone who is a little frank and a little more concerned will advise me against it...but then thats that.i would love to study history...I know its not a "lucrative" optional, but thats not the be all and end all, right??
Mass comm is "apparently" something that is made for me.i mean, i, personally, am not too sure if i would like to sit for two years learning about the nuances of a trade that i might or might not take up...and actually getting to do some solid ground work only in the third year as a compensation for 2 years of theoritical &*$#..
Eco, on the third hand, happens to be my firsst love.i can take another step ahead and justify this by bringing to light the fact that i also happened to top college in eco wid 93%...and its plain evident that when i score well in something, its ONLY because my interest in it.
i really really enjoy eco... yet history entices me coz its something i have not really learnt yet...and mass comm would rather be an easy way out if i choose to take up my language courses seriously (which is most likely to happen)...
and hence i think thoughlessness (when it comes to such decisions) is not cowardice,but plain blissssss....and so,people, kindly add to the pandemodium and help me sort things out (which i think is almost done....almost...).last date for payment of fee-2nd june.comment pronto!

please...

hmm...so this post is a collection of all those apparently (but not necessarily) trivial stuff, that i have been wanting to blurt out (yell out rather!) since long...there are a few sincere requests, a few genuine opinions and few more suggestions.perhaps it could appeal as juvenile and futile to some peeps, while the rest may nod in accordance;either which ways I shall go ahead with the post.I mean, I'm sure everybody agrees to atleast one of the many things which follow...so here goes thelist of things that i have been waiting to put across to those that have inspired me to write this post....
1.To most of those women in love who wear dupattas and sarees: I understand, that in this fast paced life, most of you guys hardly get time for intimacy and "togetherness" and also that bike-rides are particularly fun and incredibly romantic when the hero rides it oh-so-senselessly...the least you could do, to see more of those ride and to to save yourself some injuries, is keep to damned dupatta or pallu in place.I know it looks so cool when wind blows, and the dupatta flies and all, but think beyond the wind.coz once the wind subsides the only place that allures your dupatta is the freaking wheel.IN MOTION!!!!so, save romantic soft-filter-wind-blowing scenes for a vacation and get this straight.The next time, i am NOT going to scream out of my helmet.I shall get stop my bike,get down and slap you to reality!!!!!i wish!but really, tie a knot.You'll save your life and I can ride in peace.please...don't wait for a savior.be your own.
2.To the people who believe natural occurances are inevitable: Men who burp out loud.I mean REAL LOUD are not the most welcome people. If you are one of the ppl who believe "why fart and waste it while you can burp and taste it/why use the back door when you can use the front door" or watever crap, stop.and think.its not music you are producing.It's not even something humourous.It's just plain disgust, for the people around, when they get to smell whatever you just swallowed.see what i mean??its just so GROSS!!!!!!So just quit burping out loud.It aint inviting, despite the fact that it is but a natural occurance.It's just plain,extreme irritation and inexplicable disgust that you beget.so quit it.seriously.dont burp out loud and give a smile like you've won the world.Get a life.
3.To people who owe others some anount of money: Its never tomorrow for you and it's never too early for them.So try "today".I mean specially when your dadda has a business that runs beyond continents and when your wallet has more than just indian currencies, you have got to give away the amount you owe to them.No.none in particular, but to all in general...you see just because a few sissies have not the guts to ask for their own money, it isn't very nice that you take their sissiness for richness.for all you know they might not even have bucks to make you a threat call.So listen to your conscience;it says-"do you really have to buy the tommy sweat shirt when you have to repay him/her?do you really need those chanel shades??".and do what it says.Pay off the amount, specially if it's above Rs.500.Saves you and him/her some unrequired chagrin.
4.To all the "men" who smoke: for the buh'zillionth time-smoking is not sexy.it is just as bad as burping or farting except that it's worse.The reason being that the latter two are natural occurances (that can be done decently) and the former is a choice (which is bad in itself). Unless you have other factors like an incredible strength of character, a mind blowwwing sense of humour/timing and so on, you are just being tolerated.I mean, no matter how worthless you think you are, the fag sticks aren't worth you.think beyond momentary pleasures.Think beyond your hedonistic instincts.Think beyond just your satisfaction and you'll see your putting everything else at stake.Your dear ones who have not the heart to stop you, but so wish and pray that you felt they were worth a little more.Your own body thats being taken for a ride that should cost you more than you think.and i know its all been said before, but i believe that if your conscience is confronted and dealt with, things fall into places...so its never too late ppls...in the words of oprah "your life is worth it"...also mine.
5.To all the people who plan to watch 36 Chinatown: If you already have committed the sin, im sorry for your loss.If you haven't but are dying to-go die.If you have no plans of watching it-please do, it demands a standing ovvation for perfect killjoy movie ever made.I know music to the extent that i can understand when someone goes out of tune or misses a note and similar little stuff.and the movie claims but an entire set of noise filled, tuneless, highly agonizing and stress-inducing "numbers"; I aint the biggesst fan of Alka Yagnik but surely she seems to have lost her senses and her choice of music.But, its good that she chose to be a part of one of history's musically worstestest films ever.story-non existentant-so don't look/hope for one.perfomances-aksheye khanna:grace marks.kareena-cannot act in thrillers for nuts.Shahid-tolerable unlike in other movies.Upen Patel- biggest mistake of his life to have signed for this crappy film.Humour-weak.Priyanka chopra's one-second entry cannot save this ultimate piss-off movie and nor can Tanushree dutta's one minute song(??) sequence.the fact that the servants kill Isha in the movie is not even close to a thrill!Himesh Reshamiya-go get yourself killed.Or just get lost!!!!!Kareena and Shahid actually are dumb enough to sing (??) a duet in a prison cell...and its actually irritating to see them dancing for such tuneless noise...watever!Its wonderfully putrid and exasperatingly crassy.gawd-save-'em-all...

shall update when i have more "please"s to add.....