nada...

Nada called me an hour ago and said she is getting married this 14th,ie,14.06.08. we spoke almost ("spoke" spoke) after a year and this is what she tells me!!! she calls me 5 days before her wedding and announces it like i had 6 months time in hand to be happy for her! I sure was pissed,but when she told me that she's been trying to call me for ages,i had to shut up. my phone does cause me a lot of chagrin! Its such a pity i won't be here for her wedding. Im leaving to chennai tomorrow to attend Sindhu akka's wedding, which in its own way is important, but missing Nada's wedding is like...i donno!It like missing something you have been waiting to see happen for years and not being there when it FINALLY happens!!! have you any idea how that feels??I do...now...and its so bloody painful!I donnno...maybe its partially coz we were such good friends that no matter how far we have moved over the years some memories never fade. And the fun you experienced then comes right back to life at the very thought of that person! I have had immensely memorable moments with Nada. And she and I know how sure we were of our amity then,but we were proven wrong shortly after that!Nonetheless, now that she is FINALLY getting married to the same guy she has been dreaming of since she learnt to "dream", i guess all i can do is add her to the list of people that i wish well from the bottom of my heart! She was anyways a part of it, except that i had to be reminded of it. I wish she knows i am absolutely proud of her and i am so so so very happy for her. I know she and irfan are in for a lifetime of happiness. I wish her every happiness she has been craving for since i met her and i know her demands have not changed much! We have seen some of the most sweetest days of my life together. We may not be the same people that we once were but what we were to eachother, we still are and will always be-friends in need. I feel overwhelmed write now. perhaps i should have written a more organised post,but this is not a post as such!it is one of those precious moments you wanna capture before all the trivia in life take charge again, and under such pressure you can't afford clarity of thout-the purity of expression compensates for it.
Nada, unintentionally you have taught me quite a few things in life and one of them is sure the need to respect youself and to stand up for yourself. I know you live by it to the T and i have always admired you for that. You are an amazing soul despite all your superficial arien dominance. I swear by god i am bloody happy for you and if only my happiness could be converted into blessings for your happiness, there wouldn't be a single moment of sorrow in your marriage. And you need no blessings in this regard,for i am sure you are in for eternal joy. I love you guys and as i always say, "for you to be in love with someone you should be worth him/her".
his love is worth the fun person that you are and you are totally worth the sweet thing that he is. I am totally ok with your marriage. kubool kubool kubool!!!
mwah!!!wishing you all the joy in the world coz you are worth nothin less...congrats gal!!

My angels...

I dont claim to be inhumanly good, i never have been. But i know i try to be honest to myself as much as possible and if i see reason in whatever i do, i think it makes whatever i do generally acceptable. Having said that, i shall drift to the actual topic-my quirks. I, like you and everybody else breathing and alive, have my set of quirks. One of the many happens to be my habit of liking or disliking someone from the word go. And as many of my friends would agree, this instinct/habit/randomness, call it what you will, turns out to be true in 99% of the cases. As in, if my instinct tells me someone aint right for me (to befriend) somewhere in the journey of togetherness and life, the person does turn out to be WRONG!!! And if my instinct says someone is a sweetypie and is gonna stick around for life, it has been so (if 21 years is life enough). And this post is dedicated to those people, who have been approved by my instinct(the quirk) and by life and its ups and downs. I shall refrain from using names in order to let the magic prevail. If you know its you, love me more! ;-P

Despite the ready approval by my quirk, i chose to be icy to her initially. perhaps i was not ready for "a friend" as of then (i'm still so). I think few ppl are made for friends and few aren't. I choose to believe i am not the 'friend' material. There's little wonder when two ppl of the 'friends' material click, but when someone as blaaaa as me finds a 'friend' in someone as original as her, it slaps me hard on the face to strip me off my inhibitions and to be the friend that i never have been ! She is the epitome of what i would call "a perfect human being". She celebrates her being, uses her virtues and respects her flaws. She lives life like you and i can never do-by teasing it at every step. Her simplicity puts all gold to shame and that makes her personality the most priceless thing ever. We don't exchange talks everyday, but that is not reason enough to deny the fact that we care for and about each other.There are about a dozen ppl that i love, respect and admire so much, that it just chokes me to see that i can't express it. She is one of them for sure. I pray to life, to make her trip on earth just the way she wants it to be, and im sure she does not wish for an easy, eventless life. I wish she knows how much i treasure her existence and that her presence in my life makes me feel so good about myself. Understand that i will be there whenever, wherever, or whatever you need me.

I am pretty sure that the person who i refer to here will never guess it's him, but then none can either!For he and I were never , atleast so far have never been so close as to come clean with quirky revelations of this sort. We met through someone(btw,i've made most of my friends through someone!!), and now we are "friend"ly enough for me to be secretly wishing only the best in life for him. As it has always been, he too is quite old to be a "friend", but then age in his case atleast is just a number, for he and i think pretty much alike, share certain very very similar ambitions and hold spookily similar theories in life. If you know its you, understand that i really cherish your amity, much that we aren't the most friendliest friends the world has witnessed. The topics we have discussed spread across the skies, go deep into the oceans and swirl away into the wonderlands, and i cherish every observation you have made in each one of those topics. Again, someone so simple yet so powerfully individual(doesnt sound correct, but it is..no??), it puts me to shame that i cannot afford so much individuality. I look upto you like you never can guess, and i hope,pray,wish and beg of life to give you a "partner" in whom you will find answers to all your curious questions, wonderful yet incomplete theories and those haunting moments of "who-am-i" ness. I hope we remain just as friendly as we now are-not more,not less.

She is as clumsy as clumsy can get. Infact she is clumsier than the word itself communicates. She trips, falls, drops, breaks, chokes, throws,misses, and does everything that one would associate with disaster. She is a bundle of mistakes,wrapped in fun, rolled in carelessness, smothered with absentmindedness, painted with kiddishness and ribboned with the costliest form of adorability (??) you can find. She is the only human i have seen who makes ppl fall in love with her, through her clumsiness. She is at once murderably wrong, and sinfully adorable. She still has a long way to go to be the person that she is. I can see her like she cannot see herself and i know that she's is a wonderful soul. I just wwish she respected herself as much as she deserves to be, but then again, she will learn. I love you like you already know, but it only grows with every passing year. The more i know her, the more she does to make me realise that life is not always about doing the right things to fetch you heaven, its also about bringing heaven down to earth by doing the right things (the wrong way sometimes !!!) I can't wait to see how her kids are gonna be, and how she's gonna teach them to hold a crystal tray without dropping it herself!muah!u rock!

This guy can be so rude you might wanna throw the fork right through his chest. Serious. He can be downright harsh. I can remember aleast three occasions when i have had about 3 ppl attending to me as i was crying at his rude remarks-but the bottomline is he is a sweetheart. I know he knows it is him, but then i also know he aint the blogging kinds! He cracks dumb jokes and laughs victoriously (alone), makes the weaklings thebutt of all jokes and mercilessly puts them through tears yet he remains one of the most sought after "friend" in times of crisis. He dances reeeeallly well, is prettttty goodlooking i must say and has his own set of virtues that i refrein from listing lest my admiration is taken for submission.i know you know i value you friendship like crazy, partially coz you are a wonderful person no matter what and partially for binging me in touch with thebest part of my life. you know i can never thank you enough for what you did unintentionally, and eachtime i sit to appreciate my life along with the people in it, you enter into the scene invariable! I wish you and her the best in life and i will be there through the not-so-utopic ride of life.
For starters i think this should do, lest you lose interest and do injustice to those whose stories are to follow!there are atleast three more ppl i can readily think of who are to be listed, but for their own good i will save them their share of fame for later. But dont you worry. I love you all the same. And with this rather mushy post, i will also like to convey to all those ppl who know i hate them , that i REALLY DO HATE YOU. no. I don't wish for anybody harm unless you are talking about her,her or them. But the rest of you-i just don't like you.

Those of you who think i am a 21 yr old trying to be cool, bitchy and adult-like(i am one now if you realise) go ahead. Think what you wanna. Yes!I am talkin to you mister.Oh-my-god!-im-so-old-i-can't-stand-young-people-or-their-initiatives. take light and get alright. and by the way, i do dislike you too!

I thank life for all the wonderful people that it has to me presented. I only hope i prove worthy of their love. If my loss of words is expression enough, then you know it all!