Sunday, September 25, 2005

NOT YOUR FAULT...

It's not what you see,
not what you believe.
It's not what it looks like,
not what it shows.
It's not an act complete,
not all of it atleast.
It's not a nasty lie,
not anywhere close to one.

deceiving your eyes,
in an immaculate mask,
vigilant in wearing it well,
yearning to discard it,
awaiting "those" eyes...

It's not all it's fault,
not even a wee bit.
It's not even your's,
it's hidden that well!
It's not easy to distrust
a perfectly covered scar.
It's not easy to spot-behind
the night's clouds,a star...

Gawd...i've never once given out so much in one shot!
wonderin if 'the' catch is caught...
me glad even if 'it's not'...

Friday, September 16, 2005

Coluche's words-still spoken in silence

Hmm...
well...alliance has done wonders to me...i've met the creepiest creeps there.some lovely peeps.some more havin me drool over them like that.others inspiring me.and those that hav managed to make me cry coz of no fault of mine.anyways,the point i'm tryin to make here is that, while i was asked to gather some info on a topic given,i accidentally ran into these words.these words uttered by the french comedian-philanthropist named Coluche.these words which i guess were uttered by nearly every indian thats around my parents' age.these words which still are spoken in silence in parts of the world.
"Quand j'étais petit à la maison,le plus dur c'était la fin du mois.Surtout les trente derniers jours."
which can be very poorly translated to,
"When i was young,(at home)the end of month was the most dificult period.Specially the last thrity days."
I am so glad my mom and dad have no clue of my blog.if they did, i would definitely have them nodding and tearful.Also thankful that times have changed!hmm...

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Human "hunger" !

SITUATION:
I'm utterly defeated! I could not refute,contradict or attack yd's (un)timely response to our hours of futile discussions about "what-to-do"!
REASON:
At this kutty chat eatery,we were having our "talks";discussing what should be done for us to get over our once-in-a-while pangs of "oh-gawd!He's-jus-so-perfect!"...I just say, "try this yd,its yummm" as i relished a mouthful of ragda papdi.She just zaps me saying,"see?when you are hungry,anything seems yummm"!!!!
(its a different issue that the ragda padi was really yumm!)
REACTION:
Caught big time man!No answer to that super move of her's!Now i am back with my response to the smart move and with my take on "hunger"!
so...here goes MY version:
MY DEFINITION:
Hunger (contextually though!ahem!!)is a state which is achieved gradually,due to the deprivation of food,not as food in itself,but of food which satiates the "hunger".
MY EXPLANATION:
One may silence the "hunger" with whatever it is that is available at that point of time,but satiety is achieved only when "that" food is given which appeals to the appetite.
(NEGATION):
But when you're no longer hungry,why even think of satiating your hunger with food you like??
(RESPONSE):
Thats coz,hunger is not completely satisfied with chillar stuff!It is only (ONLY) when a tamil soul smells thayirsaadam that satiety is attained!(Now try and negate that!!)
hmm....ok...thats that!now...my take:
ROUND 2:
1)When satiety is guaranteedby,what you think,oops!nope!, by what you 'know' is on the platter,why wait until you're famished?
2)On a scale of H-U-N-G-E-R, where one starts out with 'H' when least hungry,to reach 'R' when it is at its alarming heights,I would say i am(as of now) some where between 'U' and 'N'...that is H-U-and half an 'N'.I am not dying outta hunger,but i still feel a part of it.Does that mean i cannot relish what i feel i may never get (if not now)?Do i have to wait until i have reached 'R' to grab 'the' food?(ahem!!we do use *grab* with food right??)
What if someone else gets to enjoy it in the mean while??
3)When what you know will satiate you best,is put right across you, you are bound to drool! and you are forced to be attracted to have it all irrespective of your level of hunger or its availability!
4)Your hunger does not make it inviting.It is inviting coz it promises you satiety.You are attracted to it whether or not you're famished for it shall (or so u know) fulfil your "hunger".
5)What appeals to you appeals to you at any given point.That is the reason it appeals to you all the more.Coz you drool over it at any level of hunger.And that is what makes you wanna take a bite of it, no-matter-when!
6)The same ingredients as in "the" food, are used in the making of a myriad others...But, what makes you surrender to 'this' one,is the proportion in which they are used,which cannot be changed in the other food either!Hence,it is humanly impossible to satiate 'the' hunger with chillar combination/proportion of the very same ingredients,coz the magic is lost then!
7)Why would anyone want to think twice before eating food?coz anyway food is meant to be eaten.moreover, when your desire to relish the food meets the food's pleasure of being eaten by the connoisseur, why bloody wait???
(NEGATION):
Is food meant to be eaten only by connoisseurs??
(RESPONSE):
That is not what is meant here.When fine cuisine meets the skilled taste buds of a gourmet, the quality and the purpose of food is well extracted by him.Not every body can relish fine cuisine.It takes a gourmet to do that!
8)Hunger needs food.(royal food is more than welcome).Royal food is right in front of hopeful eyes and watering mouth.Would it be just to turn the yes away and shut the mouth with a cheap substitute?and deprive the food some royal pleasure of being appreciated and enjoyed???

CONCLUSION:
'It" is yumm NOT coz I am hungry. 'I' am hungry NOT coz something yummm is within my reach.but, when i AM hungry and when something yummm IS at my disposal,I can by all means own it, right?(provided, it is 'out' to be owned by some hungry soul!)

PS: yd...i don think u will ever ever think og hunger again( if u knw wat i mean!) coz anyway, hungry that we are, we always deny ourselves the sumptuous meals ot there!And ya! it is always only when we are tired of being hungry, that "the" food gets more and more available!!!

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

A Sacred Sin

She danced with grace,
on an ocean of living thorns.
She smiled every instant,
at biting,reproachful glances.
Swam against every current,
trusting but the power above.
She most joyfully gave-
her all, to culpating souls.
She walked- head held high
on a rope with ends aflame.
She picked the thorns in her way,
and voila!they were flowers!
She did but commit a "sin"...
by wishing to live for others...
She'd tear her heart to stop the guilt.
She'd scream in pain,and choke herself.
She'd stone herself that she had sinned...
sinned so her branches could win...

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Funny Funny!

Isn’t it funny how the ever so perfect human brain royally mistakes a conspicuous shallow for a treasured profundity! It conveniently chooses to convince itself, that there lies something enigmatic and alluring underneath the obvious projection! What’s even funny is that every time the brain learns the “truth”, it invariable regrets not having expected the unexpected!
Isn’t it funny how I can never get enough of proving my intuitions right, and that too by indulging in the expected, and by being proven that it was ‘not’ what my anti-intuition side had preached; but was exactly what I was warned about…What’s even funny is that I can never be able to decide if I’ve got to be glad or sad about it; glad that my intuition won (yet again) or sad that I was badly defeated (yet again)!
Isn’t it funny how humans can remain so under-educated about the most evident! How hours of frivolous enlightenment is chosen over a single moment of silent submission to the truth! How even the world’s richest knowledge loses out when it comes to de-coding the not-so-Delphic screams of the mute glance…
Isn’t it funny when you know the person sitting right next to you can never be closer than that! When you know that he sees nothing in you to realize that he is the one that makes you blind to all the rest sitting around you; what’s even funny is that all the others that I am blind to, get to see the blindness you induce in me…sad you are blinded by the sight of the rest…

Thursday, September 01, 2005

the "thought"ful mating!

It elopes with another
to give birth to yet another;
and so i'm raising countless-
every instant, it grows boundless!

I give in to the pleasure of thinkin,
but it's so quick i'm left half-way through;
even there i'm only thinkin,
about how fast it grew,and zap-jus flew!

Selfish is exactly what it is,
coz it links with another and drags me there;
and the choice of connection is totally its,
meaning-i'll end up i don't know where!

It always sheets my mind.
I don't know how they mate!
But when they do,all im left with,
is a 'clan' of thoughts!My fate!

Does 'it' dictate my evolution?
or do i rule its linking quest?
Oh!but it won't get no emancipation,
for then i'll live an eternal rest!

It flies,it hides,it builds and unfolds;
never once does it stop to breath...
It wanders, it shows,it teaches it holds-
My life.Dont ever stop to breathe!